THE FIRST BLOG

those people keep hurting me..

when I keep treating them as good as much as I can

in the name of love

upon the permission of Allah.

but what do I get?

those people say they will never took me for granted as the previous people did

but..is it?

IS IT?

damn you all..

I just..can't..

seriously 

I just can't be that cool anymore

can't afford to lie to myself that everything gonna be OK

that everything have a hidden miracle behind what had happen.

Is it so hard to be nice when I do good to you?

oh..no..I'm not that good, right?

those bitches much more better, right..

ok.ok..life will never be much OK than this.

I shouldn't trust 

no..I cannot say that..

who am I to say something like that..

I just.. can't..

can't even..

how I wish I can

keep silent..

and never wake up to face all this again.

tired..I am tired..

I am

just started

to 

let

go

one

by

one

.

A

proof

that

I

just

can't

do

it

anymore

.